confessions of a nobody

This is the post excerpt.


Since I was a young child, paranormal things have happened around me, I have also suffered with extremes of emotions and had so much energy that people are often hard pressed to keep up with me.  This is going to be a place I can start to convey my story, it might not all be in chronicle order, as to start, I want to tell you about the secret world of the secret societies and how they attack harass and leech off people who are not energetically activated, and what that means is, people who have not tuned in to the subtle flows of energy that flow through their bodies, how they acquire the soulmass (energy) of these individuals and run programs and triggers on them using thoughtforms.  It is like a hidden world from the populace, like a harry potter movie, and they tried to entrap me in it, using layered speech, and possession of those around me, in something they call the ‘sim game.’ Some of these groups are aligned with the NAA, the negative alien agenda, of which I have also been a victim. I have a suspected implant in my left shoulder and my right ankle, I have met tall whites, reptilians, bulky big predatory ones with yellow eyes, and skinny cloak wearing ones who reminded me of dark alchemists or magicians with red eyes, I have met beings who are red skinned and wear black what looks like leather jumpsuits.  On the positive side I have met angelic beings, pleiadians, beings who wear blue and gold jumpsuits, travelling charismatic spirits, white robed beings and so so many more, including a druid who sat on a throne surrounded by many many beings, as I have sat down to write this, I know it has given off a signal, so I now receive pain in my left temple, and on my right side, I see lights flashing, this is my life on a daily basis, I often have one side trying to stop me, the other celebrating that I am actually choosing to do something, to tell someone, anyone, of what I have been through, all names used in this will be altered as even though some of the people I am going to write about deserve something back for what they gave, I am not the man to dish that out, I just need a release, to let go and move on, they will get theirs in due course, if the universe has anything to say about it.

To start, I will tell you how I got their attention, I had for years, seen orbs flying around, been raped by a sucubus in my teens, been dragged down in to the lower astral planes before my 14th birthday and drained repeatedly, like a battery.  I had gotten to a place in my life, where I wanted to take control of this part of myself, I went diving in to my own consciousness, then wrote about it on a certain website that I later found out was a hunting ground for predatory energy harvesters and secret societies, this sent a red flag up, I was going in to spaces that they assumed they owned, and they did not like, that I could go there, without them, I assume, I have named this space the collective mind space, and what follows will be my story.

Back in 2009 I had been meditating daily for three months, doing a violet flame mantra along with some I AM mantras, never before had I meditated, I would surround myself in light, I would see the light all around me.

Three months, exactly, I was getting all these new feelings and emotions I had not experienced, but something else, guilt, shame for how I had lived my life, I grew up in an inner city, was a gang member and all the trappings that came with that lifestyle. I questioned the sky, the stars, the earth, the sun, everything, why, WHY would I have done the things I had done, I demanded answers, demanded them from the very core of my being, screamed at the stars that moved, WHY!

Then after this feeling of needing to know why would not go, I set myself a meditation to find my answers why I had lived life like I did, so I set it up, rolled a big joint to help with the altered state, got a rainbow blanket and sat on the floor, shaman style lol, took a few big hits, then put the joint in the ashtray on my lap, then I felt this huge presence and actually heard it approach like a car or ship, it came over my house, the next door dog started to go crazy and bark like a nutter.

Next thing I know, I’m in darkness, but aware of my awareness, I begin to struggle as I feel coddled/wrapped up, like someone has put me in a rug and rolled it up, I then hear a female voice, she was shhing me, telling me, dont worry its ok, she felt really nice, like a mother, so I said to her, are you the mother and she laughed beautifully and said yes, then I went to sleep all coddled up.

I come back to awareness and I am sitting up in what looks like a sarcophagus, and standing there in front of me is a tall blond being in a blue jumpsuit with a golden triangle seam over the chest area and a tree of life insignia in a circle over his heart. He gestures me to follow so I step out and do, he leads me down a corridor that leads on to a grand hall, all beautiful white marble looking with these steps leading up to a throne, on the throne was an old man, he looked like a druid, in white robes, long white hair, white beard. behind his throne are many many beings, all dressed in blue and gold, like they are from the olden days, knights and so forth,and all among me at the bottom of the steps were others, my guide with the tree of life insignia nudges me forward, I kneel on one knee, put one fist over my heart, one on the ground to support myself and say “I have done as you asked, now may I return?” the druid raised his hand palm facing outwards and said, “not yet”. as I was being led away, a lady stepped out from behind the throne, ran down a few steps to get a better look at me.

I got led back to the sarcophagus by my blond guide and got in, awareness shifted, I am now a spark and no longer in my eternal body, my blond guide holds me in his hands and has a huge smile on his face, he holds his hands up like he is letting a bird or butterfly go, and I begin to float upwards away from him, but, it felt like I was moving downwards, a very weird sensation, I move through many many layers, mostly cloudy looking layers, then, I re-enter my body through my left thigh and I see all the light around me seal up like a zipper is being zipped up, I felt like I had pins and needles all over my body, the ashtray containing the joint is up on the shelf and I am laying on the floor trying to recover with what truly felt like pins and needles all over my body, this lasted a few minutes then I gathered enough strength to move, sit up and light that joint, wondering how it had gotten up on the shelf.

The next morning there was an image in the clouds over my house, it looked like a griffin, a lion with wings, I later found out, that the image I saw, was my families coat of arms, which I had never seen before.

About a year later I found the image at the top, that image is such a similar representation of where I went, I was gobsmacked, ignore the image at the bottom, I am new at navigating this software so will need more time to get comfortable with it.


A few months after my first meeting with Baphomet

I was being stalked and harassed, I had a member of a secret organization come around my house everyday and try to convince me to join, he told me the pope had named him the principality and the powers, I never even knew what that meant.  He told me, he was negative force.  and he told me, he was the last member of the nights of the templers, I never really believed him, I thought he was a bit of an arrogant asshole to tell the truth, but I had to try to understand what was happening and I knew he was a key.  and at night, if I went online I would be trolled and stalked, and my home was full of beings, entities, others projecting.  I was under constant scrutiny, and my dreams were being invaded by a group, one in particular a man with brown hair and glasses, was pulling me in to their ceremonial circles against my will. I was having huge mood swings, I needed to study what was happening, so I knuckled down and started to take note of certain dates, of when it would get really bad for me, I would be in two worlds at once quiet a lot, it was driving a wedge between me and my wife and I did not know how to get out of it.

What I found was on the full moon, things would intensify, and I would be pulled to their circles, their rituals, the brown haired man, was always there, he was young, mid thirties, he had a brown haired woman with him, they always worked in pairs, I have named them the fake twins. there was also an older balding grey haired man with a grey haired woman, another set of fake twins, low grade, baphomet worshipers, they were lower on the grid, their energy was a lot lower than mine, but they were trained in the arts, whereas I was just a natural, a maverick, I could do some very cool things energetically, and these people were nothing, they needed to work in groups to be able to effect me, which is what they did, they were torturing me within the energies, pulling me here and there, one time, I came too, I was tied to a chair, they told me they needed something from me, I told them to fuck off, started screaming for them to untie me, as I was getting madder and madder at them for doing this to me, I burst in to flame, I became a supernova and freed myself and burned up them and the space they were holding me in, when I say I burned them up, you need to understand that when somebody projects, they send a piece of their consciousness out of their body, they can lose that projection if not careful, in a few ways, one is, I can take it, place it in to my heart and repattern it, then what I am do is expanding myself, but that is not really my way, that is almost vamperic and what they do, so, I just burned them, burned their grids, burned their patterns, their symbols, their boards, which is the space they are in, as to them this is all a big game, this is my life, and they have destroyed it, but, I let them, and I hold no grudges, if you cant let things go, you will always be to weighed down to move forward.

What I am explaining are situations, where they separate the consciousness from the body, where they project out of the body, and when you project, based upon the vibration you exhibit, is where you will reside, I was being pulled down in to the lower grids, their occultic grids, the baphomet grids, here is a dirty place, they are only safe, because they give something of themselves up, and I refused, they cant and will never own me, but what they had been doing, is effecting my mood for months using thoughtforms, this lowered my vibration so I was able to be reached, but I never knew about this stuff then, this made me susceptible to these lower vibrational layers of our reality and I was being slowly indoctrinated against my will in to their occultic circle.

To skip forward, some years later, after many horrible things had happened to me and I had been through a very bad period of my life, due to the infringements of these groups, I went to canada to get some healing, on my way to a native reserve, I was accosted on the train by the same people I described above, and an energy battle ensued, I was followed and harassed across Canada, chased from province to province, moving around and hurt, so much, each town having a lodge in it, each town having members of certain groups who would target me and the people with me, they hurt me more than I have ever been hurt in my life, I watched the people around me get possessed, and then they would attack me, I had never felt so alone in my life, and all the truama had effected my ability to project, to be able to see, it had been making me doubt myself.

But I will write about that another time.


After the red flag had gone up

I had written about my experiences on a certain forum, this was an anonymous posting forum and I used a vpn.  I did not now at the time that other energy workers could trace me just by my words on a screen, that there were predators out there who were trying to stop people like me from fully activating my consciousness in to a higher level of being.

After a few months of posting my experiences I was one day laying in bed and about to watch a movie online, as I opened the stream, layered over the screen of the movie was the eye in the triangle, as I stared at it thinking whats this all about, it pulled my consciousness from my body and I was being pulled in to another space.  I left my body and was flying through the air towards a huge golden pyramid.  As I came up to the pyramid I thought I was going to crash in to the golden walls and put my arms up ready for the collision, but I passed straight through the walls and entered an inner chamber.

Upon entering the center of the pyramid, I saw two lines of beings in black cloaks, they all had their hoods up and were chanting chosen chosen, I was brought down between them and was floating along to the alter were there was a main hooded being, behind this being was a golden alter, with a golden menorah and a golden penrose triangle on it, everything was so bright and shiny, except the beings in black cloaks and hoods, as I reached this being, he placed his thumb on my forehead at the thirdeye area and said, chosen one.  As he touched me, I shot back to my body like an elastic band had stretched as far as it would go and it was like a slingshot, I had no time to say no, to stop the process, it all happened so fast.  As I came back to my body, I felt violated, like I had been marked, like someone had tried to make me their property. I did research on the eye in the triangle and who used it and was offended they would try to lay claim on me, it really pissed me off, it was like they thought I was property, and I knew it had come from the forum I had been using.  After that, my children started to get attacked at night, things would be flying around my house, I became moody and aggressive, it fundamentally, caused the break up of my 18 year marriage, my ex wife could not cope with the weirdness going, I was a mess my mood was messed up, it seemed like I could not get out of this rut, these mood swings, I had never studied the occult or thoughtforms or any of that kind of stuff, I was innocent to it all and was ripe for being taken advantage of.

When my children were getting attacked, I had enough, I went in to the space they were being attacked from, and I saw a double golden pyramid, with black writing going down the side in a strange language with a balcony between the two pyramids, so I went there and entered the space, within that space, was three red eyed reptilians, in black cloaks, I attacked them straight away, the details are not that important, except that I won, then I attacked their base of operations, the pyramids, and left a few presents behind for them if they tried to use negative energy there again.  After that, my children were fine and they stopped waking up screaming, the things flying around my home stopped being of a negative nature and things calmed down for them.  But for me it was just the beginning.

A few weeks later, I went out on to some local hills with a friend as we liked to look at the stars and would often watch moving stars, doing 90 degree turns etc, just as we were on the hill, a huge cloud came over us, this cloud was pumping out more clouds, it reminded me of a spaceship, I later learned it was a giant plasmoid.  While looking at this strange cloud it invoked an altered state within me, and I asked my friend if he felt that strange energy and he said yes, then, I felt a thud thud thud, and could feel something stomping up the hill towards me, I could feel its intent, it wanted to hurt me, so I surrounded myself in light, and as I did, a horned thing with boobs was stamping its feet and snorting and screaming a rage scream, I looked up at the cloud, shocked, I was stunned, I had never had something this big come at me before, I said, I must be protected by god, and I had never been a real believer in god before, as I had had such a shit life I thought, how could there be a god and he allow this to happen, as I said those words, a violet light shot across the cloud, me and my friend were both saying wow, I told him what I had just seen and experienced and said as I said those words the light came, so I said them again, and the light shot across the clouds again, so I started saying it over and over to try to illicit the same reaction from the cloud, it only did it twice, then I remembered the horned demon looking thing and as I looked back for it, it was gone, but that was not my last time seeing it, as a matter of fact, I got tortured by it, drained, and nearly driven insane, but I will write that another time.

The next time I saw the druid

I began to get this strange feeling, a few days after the previous obe,  like I was being pulled on, it felt like I was leaning to one side, yet was standing up straight.

This feeling kept coming, I would brush it off, then one day, I was on my way to work, and it came again, I said to it, not now, then it left, but I could feel it linger around me all day, it kept telling me to meditate, it looked like a sun, and would be on my right upper side.

I got home, went upstairs to my room and did some fixed breathing along with some stretches, I was being guided as I had never done this before, the breath was 5 seconds each way with a 5 second pause at the end of each exhale and inhale. then once I had done enough, I lay on my bed, and was then being guided with my third eye, I was opening and closing my physical eyes, and getting the feel of the third eye, then it opened, and I could see through my walls and ceiling and could see the stars over my house, then I saw this flashing approaching in the sky, as it got closer I could see it was a huge orb, with lots of smaller orbs surrounding it, it entered my room and the orbs turned in to beings, men and women, the druid was the big orb in the middle,  another was the blond man with the tree of life, plus others, they all looked like they were made of mist.

I then had the druid do some energy work on the left side of my stomach, his energy was red and gold fire, the same as my heart energy, when I have seen it. I got a little scared at this point cause I did not know what was going on, so I started to do a mantra to control my emotions, just a violet flame mantra, and as I did I began to rock with the energy of it, and one of the beings, a female climbed on top of me, hugged me so tight and rocked back and forth with me as I did the mantra.

Then, I popped out of body, but my awareness was spread, it was more bilocation as I was in three places at once, I was with the druid and he was showing me this blue grid, I was talking with the blond guide and was so excited saying, “I did it I did it” and, I was still aware of my body, then my then partner burst in to the room and said ” NOBODY there are ufo’s over the house” I told her I would be there in a minute, then I said to the druid, I just wanna go see the spaceships I will be back in a minute, he looked disappointed, kind of rolled his eyes lol, I simply ran off like an excited child, there was obviously nothing over the house as they were in my bedroom. I went back upstairs but could not reach a deep enough state, that was the last time I saw the druid, apart from a few brief forays, of which I shall write about another time.